I just can’t sleep. even due I was actually doing sport today, some jogging…

Project wise I didn’t achieved much today, craving around on social platforms where we (my girlfriend and me) made a good bunch of new followers..

But they may would had have appeared without my influence anyways. So I blame myself for not having made enough progress today. And on the other hand I’m angry on myself that I can’t give myself a break. It’s just one of these days I guess.

It’s 2:39 AM and I really tried to find rest but I can’t, my head is spinning. And I jump on my thoughts like a hungry wolf on a sheep.

Sometimes I miss the mental balance I had when I was a super fit, motivated and young brick layer. Working physically made one so tired that thoughts would not get enough energy to sustain themselves.

Maybe I just will start working out more often again. I have to discipline myself and observe more carefully when I fall in this poisonous spiral of checking out all the social media channels over and over again, it is also a purely egocentric behavior.