My live

That’s my live right now..

-Listening to music
-Sport ( gym, running, yoga, swimming)
-Eat nice food (sushi mostly)
-Getting massages (Thai massages without Happy End)
-Meet friends and family (Walking through the streets and other Activities)
-Watch youtube videos (mostly mooji)
-Meditate (lieng in silence observing thoughts passing by like clouds)
-Smoke Weed (supports the activity above)
-Having Sex (because YES)

Thats basically my last two months. After one week in Greece I consider working again. Cheerio World.

My theme

The Future of Marijuana Legalization by Jason Silva

Awesome video, here my brief take on it.

The term drug is pretty broad. For many people it implies addiction. You can get addicted to anything that releases dopamine for you, including sugar. It always depends upon your own intention and awareness of what you are doing. Personally I don’t drink alcohol since the state doesn’t benefit me, I smoke weed once every 1-2 months as a reward and never when I am sad. It feels really healthy, relaxing my musclure tension, allowing my organs to losen up again. Also it enables you to see certain experiences for example sport, work, life goals, movies, conversations, theater, music, meditation or nature from a total unattached new angle.

Three Points – Handed over by the Technological Plant Mother

While tripping on salvia divinorum the technological plant mother handed me over the simple idea for the triangle game, Three points.

I did it within 1-2 Days, but it looked shit..
It was already handed in to apple but I had the feeling I had to show it to my partner in law, Sabba Keynejad.

He made me reject it immediately.
Sabba made the whole idea work and a whole series out of it to get it more attention.

It worked.

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Salvia Divinorum – Let’s look at your biggest fears and highest potential

Yesterday night I could not sleep I was restless due the heavy iPhone app work I have done and experienced recently.
So I decided to put a light base of Weed together with a low dose of Salvia into my small coca cola glass pipe.
I smoked it as it would be my favorite drink, with long inhalations, trying to penetrate the depth of my lungs with it with ought coughing. Let it flow through the lungs mildly and unleash its magic. I took only about 4 such hits and decided to put the pipe away since the effect was arising quickly.

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It begann to feel very odd and scary like losing the control, I stood up and walked to my bathroom to drink some water from the sink. I was drinking and it felt like I lost the feeling of time I couldn’t say to myself anymore how long I was already drinking. So I stopped and started watching in the mirror. I could see a lot of insecurity and fear in my eyes but also a very good looking young man.

I decided it will be the best idea to go back to my bed and lie there with some nice chill music. The effect became stronger and stronger and it came with a whole bunch of fear. Like existential deathly fear, I started to imagen or memorize my traumatic event where I was almost beaten to death together with my brother from a spanish gang. The memory became more and more realistic as the effect of the salvia grew. All the feelings and pain came up, I gained the control to switch away from this thought but I decided to stay to examine the full amount of fear.
It was as different types of fear that hold me are shown to me.
I had a manifesting thought of my father shouting at me as a kid which also raised tremendous fear in me.
In my mind I saw like a rotation circle and my father falling behind and denying the need of new things because he couldn’t keep up with it. Then I had him death and a immense sadness and feeling of being lost in this crazy reality without reference point appeared. I observed my own decaying and sickening and the growing fear of my own awaiting death.

I really wanted to put the whole experience in a positive direction now and focused on the nice music that was playing.
Thoughts about my app’s and work appeared, it felt like a had some deep breakthroughs and also gave myself more permission to become successful, as a reward of facing some of my underlieng fears.

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I was floating with the music and the fear passed away like a cloud, here and there small notions appeared, almost like saying to me: „Don’t get to lose and free else you will suffer, I tell you.“

My thoughts became more and more rapid and there where no felt gaps in-between anymore. It felt like a warm pillow I was sinking into. A garden eden appeared around me, I had my eyes closed. It felt like I had access to totally different areas of my brain now, like a garden eden in my mind, I felt liberated from fears. The image of the brain with millions of gateways appeared.

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The thoughts where now so fast that it felt they are on the edge to leave the world of matter, becoming an other form of higher energy. For me it was like a reasonable thought that this speeding up lets us transcend the physical realm but I did not had enough to do so.

This morning I awaked and was eager to work on all my games. I updated all 10 of them and uploaded them to apple this event boosted my already declining motivation up again.

Experiment Weekend: Salvia and Weed Trip Report

Intense Weekend! That’s a rarity because mostly they are not..
Since Amsterdam 2 months ago, we did not have any consciousness effecting substances, except coffee and sugar. It was about time! On friday I bought some cupcake mix from the supermarket and mixed some herbs, before I baked them up.
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My girlfriend Karolina and me ate each a half since some friend wanted to come over to eat some cauliflower soup created by Karo. The plan was to go into the park and play some „Capture the flag“, I never heard about the game in real life. It’s a common play mode in video games tough. What ever it started to rain and we arrived way to late there.

So we went home after 20 minutes without even had ran one single time. We watched some movies, she and I had a light buzz effect of it, but nothing spectacular.

So let’s come to the interesting stuff, saturday we smoked it out of a small pipe together with another herb called Salvia.

It had a strong effect and could be compared to the first stage of a magic mushroom trip. Objects became more fluid to look at, the own voice seemed much further away from the self as usual. I was overall much deeper within me, if that makes any sense.

We decided to go jogging because we heard from joe rogan podcast that jogging in a altered state is a totally different experience. It should be very meditative and intro introperspective. So we took our shoes and the iPhone to track our performance.

I could feel every muscle and bone in my body, the breathing rhythm felt perfect. The main reason I normally stop to run is because the breathing doesn’t supply enough air to sustain the body anymore. Or in other words when I feel exhausted. But with this rhythm I felt i could run for hours, Karo was behind me and she probably had a totally different experience because normally she is very fit but she was all red and out of breath.

We both tended to lose ourselves either in too much thought or in nothingness, it seemed to be the same thing.
When we crossed streets I was super carefully so afraid I could make a mistake. In the park different areas, depending on how much sun or shadow they got, or how the form of the place or route was, the location felt dramatically different.

So overall we made 4 Kilometers which is a pretty normal result for us. But I swear I could have ran much more it felt so insightful to observe the body while this heavy performance act together with this perfect breath rhytm.

Sunday!
On Sunday we left away the salvia because it was pretty trippy and we wanted to have it still somewhere controllable. So we ate only 1 cupcake and went to the Zoo. This creepy reptiles.. I was making a starring contest with all animals I could find because I really wanted to check what they are all about. And these herbs let you really connect or dig deep into what you put your focus on. But mostly I got interrupted by very loud and annoying default zoo guests, which are loud hammering against the glass windows and eat their snacks like they walked a marathon today. They are not really letting a true meeting between them and the animals happen, I mean there is glass between you and the animals but still you can connect much more deeply if you really would go for it.

So I think we started with some pelicans which had a pretty chilled and back-stairing reaction. But I could definitely get their attention through it, even if  plenty of people where around.

There was this one alligator which must have got very unconfident, with me starring at him, because after a while he just stood up and hidden himself behind a rock. So looking at the eyes has a lot to do with dominance but I can’t take this entirely there has been some other communication but most simpler creatures like these lizard couldn’t stand it. Birds could.

There was this crazy bird which was defending the entry hall to this hall, it was this kind of halls with the tropic flowers and animals where you can freely walk through.
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So he was peeping and I would almost saying screaming at the people entering his part. A lot of people gathered around him because he was beautiful orange and acted like he was on exctasy.

He flew right in the face of my girlfriend and scratched her lightly with his feets, she must had looked very scary to the bird. My girlfriend was just laughing, it was only a small bird, not really a threat.

The biggest connection I could build up to a bird that was one that looked like a tiger peacock, which was walking on the ground. No other people where around so I could come very close by moving slowly. I was going on my knees and created the eye to eye connection.

And the bird started to make noise towards me, I put my hand and rubbed her feathery chest. She seemed to be ok with it, not pleased but ok. She started looking hectic at me and making varies noises. It felt like the bird wanted to say me something but she couldn’t and she was even aware of it what made her sad and getting more and more hysteric. A second bird probably the male version appeared slightly behind her, he was just watching.

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So I felt maybe I just scared the poor bird so I decided to move away, but in this moment where I was going away she was jumping against the fence like I’m not finished. This deep encounter felt like animals have the same basic consciousness at the root, but are much more limited through their vehicle and it’s abilities. This sounds hippy but I just write as experienced.
The switch between this intense animal kingdom back to the U-bahn was also pretty impressive, just the realization that we have developed out of this dangerous wild food chain, upwards to a totally higher level on which we have not to care about any of these predators, in the regular daily live.

 

Magic Mushrooms/Truffels Trip Report

What is this article about?
I describe a subjective experience I had on a large amount of (22g) of the strongest legal available magic truffles.
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This is what was shown to me by the mushroom, surrounding influences and my mind – while I was In this state.

Setting:
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I was one week in Amsterdam together with my girlfriend, my brother and his friend. I had a very strong experience on magic mushrooms which I want to share. We bought them at a local store, the strongest one for 25 euro per 22g box. We were told 1 pack per person..as we later online figure out one pack is enough for 3 persons.. We walked for quite a while to find the perfect green spot, a park a little bit away from the Amsterdam central.
Surrounded by ducks and varies birds we placed ourself close to a small lake on a grass spot. My girlfriend took 1-2 small crumbles the rest of us ate the full boxes. Which is a very high dose…

Beauty awakes:
We were starring into the sky while waiting for any effect. My girlfriend left us alone what I think was better since she wasn’t on the same frequency at this point and wouldn’t have been able to understand what we go trough soon. I think it started similar to the effects experienced on weed/hash eatables with laughter and good mood. Then colors became vivid and beautiful, the reflection of the sun on the water and the reflection of the sun through the water back at the surroundings became magnificent. But it was cold there on the ground so we decided to sit on a bench which was close so that my girlfriend could find us again. That’s were the mushroom started unfolding his real magic.
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Mother nature – is so happy that you recognize her
The trees in the middle of the lake on a small island started to become one, and it was alive and waving happily towards me, happy to be recognized as living form. It was like a mother warm and cuddly but I was also repulsed of her because I want my independence. As longer I focused on her the more she revealed her secrets, I saw geometric patterns coming out of branches and leaves. I was locked in a kind of tunnel vision towards it and the information around was growing. But then my brother and his friend interrupted me by poking my shoulder and face in order to get the attention either on them, or away from the tree knowledge or they just wanted to check if I’m still alright. But it any case it broke the connection there and the information was fading away.
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Seasons of life in a rapid fast forward mode
It was switching between sunny and clouded weather, in my state it felt directly like the seasonings of life and I was passing through them rapidly. At one point I felt like my father – looking through his eyes. I became tired and more tired I felt as I just went throughout 100 of years and I’m now ready to die, I actually looked forward to have a final rest and peace.
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I closed my eyes and decided that I could just stop my heart now and end it. So I did and a big blackness came I just went right into it and in this moment an energy wave emerged out of my heart and was waving through all this layers of dimensions I had sunk into. And it vibrated me back right in the here and now. It became totally clear for me that having no experience is not possible. It is a loop of sleep/death and life, there is no end to it.

Dream and Reality Mixed
3 days ago I had a sober dream of an wooden house with 3 snakes, in it one of them had my brother in it’s mouth and my brother was already half swallowed. In the dream I took a knife and cut him free. In the park his friend became the snake and my brother a bird in his stomach, my brothers name is also Robin, which is a bird.So I went through deadly fear but I had to approach the snake, I just was so afraid of her I couldn’t do it in the first waves of the notion. But at one point I summoned courage and approached him (brothers friend) verbally and he made all this snake noises and laughed. But after while it felt like he became friendly and robin laughs and a small black bird approached us, like symbol of approaching freedom, the snake friend pushed the bird away with his feed. (not hitting it)
After a while I shared the snake story more clearly with my 2 companions and they both meant that I had a snake in me all the time. „The snake was all the time in you!“  Also while sitting there it felt like I can adapt my body to the cold or warmth, becoming cold blooded or warm blooded being. After a while we moved forward to more sunny bench totally forgetting that my girlfriend might will search us.

In the reptilian mind – start of consciousness
Life – Death – Life // I was heavily switching between dieng and living and i felt like being at the beginning of consciousness.
In the beginning the process of the consciousness were much more simplistic but also hectic and unwanted.
For example I was alive than dead, I already experienced it so there would be no progress to redo it. So It saved this information like   (1 / 0) Experience and the next time(next live) I would not directly kill myself I would play with what I already had experienced. But the awareness that I would kill myself or get myself at one point was there. The symbol of the snake eating its own tail came to my mind.
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It felt like death is the ultimate fear but by going through it you will just see yourself smiling and waiting for you. So what we did as early life forms was using information like (1 / 0) and row it behind each other like (1/0)(0/1)(0/1)(1/0)…..
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It felt like building a snake tail, a tail of experiences. I also had the image of a string that starts to move wave like, just like a snake moves forward.
And that this is one of the earliest life forms I could absorb from the experience.

It was a very scary time because it was heavily about life and death, there was no rest and I did not like it. So I was continuous surrendering and with this I became more and more able to move into the direction I wanted to move since death would not stop me, I already knew death enough to walk into it with a smile. This smile, a positive attitude and the will to choose formed in my head faith and live became more and more about joy and experience and less about survival.  We didn’t talk with each other during this experience but my brother said during this thought train „This is how self confidence is created“. It’s the trust in the self in every living creature that we know at the bottom that its not about surviving its about moving in the direction we choose.

Tendency to death
One have to be very careful during a mushroom trip, not because you start to think you can fly how media likes to put it. No it’s because death is less scary because you are directly connected to it, it becomes a valid option. And if the only thing that had hold you alive was the fear of death you will be free to go right now. So I would only suggest to do mushrooms if you 100% want to live and your honest about it to yourself and not just think you want to live because others have told you too. Or have someone sobber with you that watches over you. I had the feeling that the one friend of my brother all the time wanted to walk into trouble and potential death. He yelled at a passenger and then we had to calm him down  and he wanted to walk to a group of man and make trouble we had to hold him back, less physical more with our minds and words. It’s really not for everyone how it seems.

Greek philosophers
Now clearly above the primitive reptilian mind we were walking through the sunny park looked at people enjoying their lives I felt like a greek phylopsher walking through greek gardens. Enjoying proudly what we have achieved and were we have arrived, thinking about creating libaries and museums to teach the future about the past so it has not to be repeated. And the other 2 guys behind me appeared human too and had become a part of the greek phylospher snake tail.

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Alice in Wonderland
My girlfriend came back and we were walking through the park which appeared like a great labyrinth now and in the moment I thought labyrinth a bunny was on the grass walking down the rabbit hole. Here I have more blurry phases than in the parts before. But I can remember all four of us sitting on a bench my girlfriend was eating some snacks and appearing to me like the girlfriend of tim burton and all of us were like fantasy characters starring at the beauty around us. A really nice fairytale moment in a wonderland.
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The eyes behind the visible dimensions
This happened much earlier in the trip but somehow I placed it in this text here later to make more sense out of the rest.
All visible objects in front of my view where moving apart from each other lightly, not completely and I saw many eyes behind the known dimensions starring towards me/us.
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There was the feeling that we are their experiment but they are also us. Like we had split ourself into a creator and experiencer. There was a voice that asked “ Is it now as you wanted it?“

Final Conclusion
There was more stuff about huge beings, worm and creature like fighting over resources that also includes us humans or an experience of being in a cocoon and we have to fight our way out into the next stage of being, or flower out. You account happenings as your doing since its all you, coming out of this is a Mind to mind connections, you think about something and someone around you talks to another person but the phrase directly answered your internal talk. So it is like a higher self talks through everything around you directly with you. I’m a very rational being I do programming and art and create video games but this does not change the fact that I experienced all of that.
Overall I think it was a intensive incredible scary but also extremely alive and beautiful experience I want to do again. But then in my room with nice music, relaxed. I also made a video where I talk about it.